Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be liked back for once. I guess I’m just not the type of girl who’s into “playing the game.” I suck at playing the game. I’m not good at it. I can’t read people. I don’t know what the next move is and it feels like I’m playing a game of chess. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I’m awkward and believe it or not, I’m awfully shy. I wish things were so much simpler because lately, I feel like I’m always losing.

So I got a haircut today and highlights, except the lady who did it fucked up so much. She cut my hair shorter, when I specifically told her how much I wanted cut off. I told her to trim my bangs, but she cut them so short I now have short and blunt bangs. And the fact that you can barely notice my highlights doesn’t help at all. You know how much it cost me to get my hair messed up? $75. Even though I hate it so much and even though it’ll take awhile to get used to, I lied to her and told her I liked it because she was so nice. I even tipped her. Guess I’m not such a bitch after all.

I have to help pitch in $200 for rent for our new house every month.
I have to pitch in $100 for my part of the phone bill.
The rest of my money goes to food and gas.
And since I’m back in school, I can’t work as much so
every paycheck pretty much goes to bills.

I wish I can just go back to being a kid -__- 

I need someone new to crush on at work, hahaha.

Just when I finally got over you, you reel me back in like a fish. You got me hooked.